Staying

Alright so as most of you know I decided to stay in Ogden a bit longer. I found out that I can't live on base with my brother which that was a possibility so I had a plan B just in case. So it was either still move home or stay here. So I decided to stay here. Which I think was a good choice. I'm looking into enrolling for spring at Weber State. I'm a little nervous because I haven't done the whole University thing. I've gone to professional school and thats one on one stuff in the same classroom everyday. But I think everything will be alright.

So at church today during Relief Society the lesson was on overcoming trials in our life and knowing that heavenly father is always there for us no matter what. She read the testimony of a friend who's mother passed away a little over a year ago. She talked about how when her mother passed she thought he world was over and there was no way she would ever be happy and understand how she would get by without her mother. She said she turned more towards the teachings of the church and gained a stronger testimony.
At the end of the lesson the the teacher played a song sang by Hilary Weeks. I cried when I heard it and it hit me in all the right places. So here is the lyrics to the song. I hope you all like it if you haven't already heard it..here is a video that has the song.. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YkRo42AbOfQ

Hilary Weeks "He'll Carry You"
He knows your heart
He knows your pain
He knows the strength it took just to simply breathe today
He sees the tears that you cry
He knows your soul is aching to know why
He hears your prayers each humble word
When you said you couldn't face another day he understood
He knows the path that you will find
Though you felt alone he's never left your side

Chorus:
He knew there'd be moments when no earthly words
Could take away your sorrow And no Human eyes could see
what your going through
When you've taken your last step and done all that you can do
He will lift your heavy load and carry you

He'll bring you peace and leave you hope
And in the darkest night he'll comfort you
Until you know the sun will rise and each new day
You will have the strength to live again

Chorus:
And when there are moments when no earthly words
can take away your sorrow
And no Human eyes could see what you're going through
When you've taken your last step and done all that you can do
He will Lift your heavy load and carry you

He hears you when you're crying in the night
He hears you when you soul longs to find
Till the morning will come
And the light of the dawn reassures

Chorus:
That in the moments when no earthly words
can take away your sorrow
And no human eyes could see what you're going through
When you've taken your last step and done all that you can do
He will lift your heavy load and carry you.

To My Friends....

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.
When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a nee d you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.
Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.
Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or whether you are a lifetime.

Moving and Life

As most of you know already I have decided to move again. I know I move alot. :) Its just me I don't think I can stay in one place too long. So for now i'm moving home with my parents. Which is in Oakley, Idaho. Most of you look down on people that live with the parents but this is something I need to do in order to get back on track with my life. Sometimes you just can't do things without your parents help. I don't expect them to do everything for my happiness but it will sure help. I'm glad I can go to them when I need it. So in order to do that my family and I and Heavenly Father strongly believe that I should be home. I'm also looking into moving to New Mexico to live with my brother and his family. But that is up in the air right now. There are things that need to be done in order for that to happen. It will happen if its supposed to. I'm not worried anymore about what my future holds I took to much time trying to plan things instead of just letting things happen and I felt failed when my plans didn't happen. So i'm changing things and hope it helps. So wish me luck on my adventure in finding myself. I'll keep you updated as much as I can.

Starting Something New

Alright so I thought maybe to help me with my millions of thoughts that I would start writting things down..well I guess actually typing. I hope it helps because I have a ton of things that bother me day to day and if I can get them out in the open so to speak then maybe it will help. I've been going through a lot lately in my life that everything I do from now on will be a little different. I want to start something new and this is the best way I know how.